đż The Day I Stopped Forcing Myself to Be Productive
How science, self-compassion, and small habits helped me rebuild trust in myself.
The cursor blinked on a blank page. Morning light spilled across my desk, coffee cooling beside the keyboard. I sat there, unmoving â that familiar tension building in my chest. The one that says, you should be doing more by now.
And just like that, the day began with a negotiation between my ambition and my mood.
A few days ago, one of my readers asked me a question that brought me right back to this moment:
âYou are so systemized and consistent. How does one stay consistent and systemic despite the mood sometimes?â
Her question hit something raw. Because for a long time, I believed consistency meant force.
If I could just plan better, work harder, wake earlier â Iâd finally keep up.
But what Iâve learned is that real consistency isnât born from willpower. It grows out of design, safety, and self-kindness.
This is the story of how I discovered that.
Letâs dive in.
When Trying Harder Stopped Working
There was a time when my life felt like a traffic jam of unfinished projects and competing priorities. Parenting, work, uncertainty â everything demanded attention, and nothing felt complete.
Each undone task fed the inner critic:
âSee? You always fall off.â
I tried to out-plan the chaos, but each list became another way to prove I couldnât keep up.
I thought I was failing at consistency â but what I was really failing at was believing in myself.
That realization cracked something open.
Maybe the problem wasnât me.
Maybe it was the system Iâd built around me.
Turning My Life Into a Living Lab
I remember one evening, sitting at my desk surrounded by open tabs â all about productivity, motivation, and focus â and feeling completely defeated.
I didnât need another rule or planner. I needed to understand how humans actually change.
Thatâs when I discovered BJ Foggâs Tiny Habits, James Clearâs Atomic Habits, and the neuroscience behind how repetition and emotion help build lasting behaviors.
Both Fogg and Clear emphasize that real change doesnât begin with willpower, but with intentionally designing habits to be simple, rewarding, and connected to existing routines.â
Behavioral scientists refer to this process as âhabit stackingâ (or âanchoringâ in Foggâs terms) - linking a new habit to something you already do, so change feels natural and automatic.
Neuroscience describes this as building associative neural pathways â repeated pairing of cues and actions rewires the brain through neuroplasticity - the brainâs ability to rewire itself based on what we repeat and reward.â.
So what starts as an intention eventually becomes instinctive, especially when reinforced by rewarding feelings.â
Inspired by this evidence, I decided to quietly experiment in my own life:
â After my morning coffee, I opened my planner.
đž After dropping the kids off, I left one thoughtful comment online.
đȘ After a workout, I wrote for twenty minutes.
How Two-Minute Victories Rebuilt My Self-Trust
I made the steps even smaller â two minutes of writing, one paragraph of reflection â and started celebrating each completion.
A walk. A smile. A deep breath.
It felt silly at first, but it worked.
Every small success released dopamine, a brain chemical that cheers you on after small successes. It is the brainâs way of saying âyes, again.â (Graybiel, 2008; Smith & Graybiel, 2016).
Those two-minute victories did more than build habits; they repaired trust.
What used to feel like failure began to feel like feedback.
Learning to Protect My Focus Like Something Sacred
Next came focus.
I began time-boxing my work: setting clear intentions for each block, removing distractions, asking,
âWhat do I want to bring to this hour?â
Suddenly, the noise quieted.
Later Iâd learn why: when the prefrontal cortex (the brainâs focus and planning center)) has one clear task, it reduces interference from the brainâs default-mode network â the part of the brain that fuels daydreaming, self-talk, and overthinking. It also fuels procrastination and doubt.
It wasnât discipline that made focus possible.
It was clarity and containment â giving the mind one safe room to breathe in.
When Kindness Became More Powerful Than Willpower
One evening, after another demanding day, I caught myself whispering:
âItâs okay to slow down. Youâre still aligned.â
It felt insignificant, but that quiet moment changed something profound.
By offering myself kindness instead of criticism, I broke a long-standing habit of self-punishment.
This shift reflects what psychologist Kristin Neff, along with Chris Germer, have found through research and clinical practice: self-compassion isnât just feel-good adviceâitâs a measurable way to improve well-being and build resilience.
Neuroscientific studies show that when we respond to ourselves with self-kindness, we actively quiet the brainâs threat-defense systemâthe part that triggers stress and anxietyâand instead stimulate the âcare network,â - the system in the brain that activates feelings of safety, warmth, and connection.
That night, I realized that what I needed wasnât more pressure or discipline.
What truly drove change was the permission to rest, the practice of self-kindness, and the conscious choice to treat myself with compassionâscientifically proven pathways to lasting motivation, resilience, and emotional well-being.â
The Art of Returning Without Losing Yourself
Today my rhythm feels alive, not mechanical:
â Coffee â Planner
đž Kids â Connection
đȘ Workout â Writing
đ§ Evening â Reflection
There are still messy days. Of course! Life always brings suprises and unexpected change.
But I no longer treat them as evidence that Iâm failing â just messages from a tired nervous system.
Consistency, Iâve learned, isnât about never breaking.
Itâs about knowing how to return.
The Day My Old Story Lost Its Power
When I look back, I see that what really changed wasnât my calendar â it was my self-concept.
Those inner lines â âYouâre not consistent,â âYouâll never keep this upâ â still visit. But they sound like echoes from a script Iâve outgrown.
Each time I return to my anchors â coffee, planner, reflection â Iâm writing a new story.
And maybe thatâs what growth truly is:
Not perfection, but the courage to begin again, kindly.
With care
Andreas
References
Carver, C. S., & Scheier, M. F. (1998). On the Self-Regulation of Behavior. Cambridge University Press.
Christoff, K., Gordon, A. M., Smallwood, J., Smith, R., & Schooler, J. W. (2009). Experience sampling during fMRI reveals default network and executive system contributions to mind wandering. PNAS, 106(21), 8719â8724.
Fogg, B. J. (2019). Tiny Habits: The Small Changes That Change Everything. Houghton Mifflin Harcourt.
Graybiel, A. M. (2008). Habits, rituals, and the evaluative brain. Annual Review of Neuroscience, 31, 359â387.
Neff, K. D., & Germer, C. K. (2013). A pilot study and randomized controlled trial of the Mindful Self-Compassion program. Journal of Clinical Psychology, 69(1), 28â44.
Smith, K. S., & Graybiel, A. M. (2016). Habit formation and the striatum. Behavioral Neuroscience, 130(1), 1â12.
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Thank you for answering me. Am saving this and keeping the stacking habits and 2min success tip in mind.